Wednesday, June 22, 2011

IT'S A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so happy and estatic to announce that today Joe and I found out that we are having a baby girl. Joe was growing so impatient in the waiting room. Then we got to go back and she quickly told us all that we would be looking for during the ultrasound. They measured and looked at the brain, the spine, the heart, the amount of amniotic fluid, the head, etc. I am so happy and relieved to say everything looked great! Even the position of the placenta which I learned today can also be problematic and "blocking" the exit for the baby.  Wow, we were blown away it was so amazing and fascinating to see the bones and the organs and then we got to see her in 4D!
I was busy searching for that little scrotum and penis, then came the moment of truth, she got right between the legs and told us we have a GIRL!! Thank God, YES!!! Honestly, we DID just want a healthy baby but we REALLY, REALLY wanted a girl.
So Chloe Niccole is doing really well, she was moving around the entire time and sucking her thumb. I sucked my thumb until I was WAAAAAYYY too old, it was a bit of an out of control obsession more than just a habit. We got many pictures that we can't stop staring at. SHE EVEN SMILED in one!! I didn't think that was possible, but there she is smiling away for the camera. I never thought I could be this happy and so, so, very grateful to God for my many blessings. This is a GREAT DAY!!!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

OUCH! Pregnancy really hurts...

Ok, so I have all the books, and I have read them, I actually have 2 "What to Expect When You're Expecting" books. But wow! These past few days have been absolutely brutal and I had to vent about it. I guess I have been so filled with fear and anxiety about the actual birth that I didn't realize the long and painful road that I must travel to get there. On Monday night I had horrible indigestion pains and on top of those I also felt like I had pulled my back out. I am growing ever larger each day and the pressure on my back isn't good. I have tried to take steps to help my back out. I put my feet up whenever I have the chance. I bought a special lumbar support pillow for my chair at work. But Monday night I could barely move the pain was so intense. I couldn't turn over in bed very good, much less get up and down, which is not cool since I have to get up to go the bathroom plenty of times duirng the night. So that was one night of horrible pain and I was forced to stay home from work yesterday because I knew I couldn't come in here feeling like that. But then last night was a whole new set of pains to contend with. There I was in bed with my Boppy pregnancy pillow which supports your body as well as goes between your legs to take some pressure off your poor spine and at 2 am I was woken up by the jabbing, shooting and intense abdominal pains. Thank goodness I have been reading my books that assured me that these were all normal nnd par for the course. But damn they hurt. So I started my deep breathing exercises to try to ease my way through the hour or so that they came and went. I told my co-workers this morning that it feels like there are tiny elves inside my belly with a series of ropes that they pull and yank HARD at random times. It is also very painful if I cough or when I have to bend over or get up out of bed or a chair. WHEW! I know I will get through this but its going to take all the strength in me. I am a very sensitive person and I HATE PAIN. I don't deal well with pain either, obviously. There are other things that make the adventure so interesting and well frankly, terrifying. There is the shortness of breath and rapid heart beat after climbing stairs.There are also random shooting pains runnning through my breasts, I guess in preparation to turn them into milk machines.

 The bottom line is that it is becoming increasingly difficult for me just to function and do the simplest of tasks. I expected that this would happen.....eventually but next week marks the HALF WAY mark through the pregnancy, so I have quite a ways to go! Please pray for me. I am trying so very hard to hang in there.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Another Huge Announcement

Besides my on-going daily experience with my pregnancy, another thing that has been keeping me away from writing my blog has been our search to find a house to buy.  The great news is that our contract has been accepted and we are in the beginning stages of buying our first home!

We started our long and stress-inducing search years ago. We started looking in Pennsylvania because Joe works in MD close to the PA/MD border and the houses are much cheaper than the expensive Columbia. That didn't work out and after that I decided to try to go to Grad school and dropped out and then started my current job, as you all know. So when all of that changing chaos was over, we started looking again last year but didn't find anything we loved in our price range. Single family homes pretty much start around $300 to $400K where we live so those are ALL out of the question because we definitely can't afford that.

Recently, it has been an uphill battle against the current horrendous market and the selection of houses. There are a TON of short sales and sketchy foreclosures that are being sold "as is" and we knew that those two situations weren't ideal for us. Then you have the fact that most people don't want to sell their houses right now because the market is so terrible and they are probably going to get far less than they want.

We felt pressure to buy now because, obviously we have a baby on the way and we know it will be hard to move after we have them and all of their stuff.  Plus, we have wanted to be home owners for years. As much as we love the fact that when something breaks, our landlord will come and fix it, it doesn't feel good to live somewhere and not be able to paint it or change it the way you want to and to not be able to call it your home. There is also the fact that we are in our mid-thirties and we would like to pay off our house by the time we are in our mid-sixties when we will be retiring. Unless by that time, you have to wait until 75 to retire!! (please God let that not happen!)

So this house was the best one that we have seen and we have seen PLENTY of houses. Its a really big townhouse with a totally remodeled kitchen (my favorite part and the most important part in my mind!) and its in a good school district. It is within walking distance of the pool, on of Columbia's 23 pools we can choose from. We are so excited, relieved, happy and PROUD of us!!

There are so many things about our rental house that drive me absolutely insane that I can't wait to say a GOODBYE and GOOD RIDDENS to! Most of all the fact that we can hear EVERYTHING in our bedroom that is going on outside down on the sidewalk. We hear the loud ass birds, the loud ass neighbors, the loud ass kids, the cars, traffic, everything, everything. The kitchen we currently have to deal with is soooo tiny and there is zero counter space and not enough cabinet space. The cabinets are also very old (probably the originals) and they are gross and smelly.

So after all that complaining, I must say that this leads to my unyielding and infinite gratitude. I am SO thankful to God for all of my blessings, my baby inside, my big baby on the outside, and that our dreams are coming true and just in time!! We have a house, we are really homeowners now!!

I knew it required a lot of money and work but WOW, I have a million things I need to locate and fax over to our financing person. So I better get on that. I feel like such a grown-up and even if I feel like I will never really grow-up, this feels really good. To be building the life I have always wanted and creating love and happiness. For so long, I really believed that this wasn't going to happen for me.  That is the amazing beauty of possibility and hope and not giving up so that you can achieve your dreams and goals.