Ok, so I have all the books, and I have read them, I actually have 2 "What to Expect When You're Expecting" books. But wow! These past few days have been absolutely brutal and I had to vent about it. I guess I have been so filled with fear and anxiety about the actual birth that I didn't realize the long and painful road that I must travel to get there. On Monday night I had horrible indigestion pains and on top of those I also felt like I had pulled my back out. I am growing ever larger each day and the pressure on my back isn't good. I have tried to take steps to help my back out. I put my feet up whenever I have the chance. I bought a special lumbar support pillow for my chair at work. But Monday night I could barely move the pain was so intense. I couldn't turn over in bed very good, much less get up and down, which is not cool since I have to get up to go the bathroom plenty of times duirng the night. So that was one night of horrible pain and I was forced to stay home from work yesterday because I knew I couldn't come in here feeling like that. But then last night was a whole new set of pains to contend with. There I was in bed with my Boppy pregnancy pillow which supports your body as well as goes between your legs to take some pressure off your poor spine and at 2 am I was woken up by the jabbing, shooting and intense abdominal pains. Thank goodness I have been reading my books that assured me that these were all normal nnd par for the course. But damn they hurt. So I started my deep breathing exercises to try to ease my way through the hour or so that they came and went. I told my co-workers this morning that it feels like there are tiny elves inside my belly with a series of ropes that they pull and yank HARD at random times. It is also very painful if I cough or when I have to bend over or get up out of bed or a chair. WHEW! I know I will get through this but its going to take all the strength in me. I am a very sensitive person and I HATE PAIN. I don't deal well with pain either, obviously. There are other things that make the adventure so interesting and well frankly, terrifying. There is the shortness of breath and rapid heart beat after climbing stairs.There are also random shooting pains runnning through my breasts, I guess in preparation to turn them into milk machines.
The bottom line is that it is becoming increasingly difficult for me just to function and do the simplest of tasks. I expected that this would happen.....eventually but next week marks the HALF WAY mark through the pregnancy, so I have quite a ways to go! Please pray for me. I am trying so very hard to hang in there.