Friday, March 30, 2012


I have been thinking of this idea of happiness and how we always seem to be chasing this idea. These are some reasons that I think I am happy and no, I am not by any means boasting or bragging. I am stating things that help me to stay positive and sane and of course..happy.

1) I try to keep things simple - this sounds easy and nice but it takes actual work. Life can become overwhelming and complicated but if you try to keep it simple then it will go much easier and smoother.

2) try to purge and constantly get rid of what you don't need, avoid becoming a hoarder!! All you have to do is watch an episode of Hoarders to know how out of control one's life and house can become. Since having a child I have acquired a ton of stuff in a very short time so my house has become a revolving door of things coming in and things going out. You can dontate your stuff to people/causes that desperately need it. Great way to appreciate how much you have and how blessed you really are!

3) I am madly in love with my husband and my little girl. That is it. Funny that most people don't want to be with the person they are with. Why? That seems sad. Maybe too many people want something until its theirs and then they don't want it anymore. That seems vapid and empty. The bottom line is that if you are unhappy change your situation. You can do it, limitation is an illusion. The divorce rate is 50% and marriage isn't sacred anymore. Well it is in my house!

4) I try to have an attitude of gratitude and I know how lucky and blessed I am and I thank God everyday. I am so very blessed to be healthy, to have a wonderful, gorgeous husband who loves me and to have been so blessed to have created a beautiful, happy, heatlhy little girl out of that love.

5) I am very creative and use my humor and wit everyday and apply it to most situations. This world can be a scary and cruel place sometimes you need to use your will, imagination, heart, humor and genius to survive.

6) I realize that I am a work in progress, I still have so much to learn even if I act like I know it all too much of the time.

7) I have a fierce appreciation for beauty. You can find it anywhere and everywhere. Music. Art. A flower. A moving piece of writing. A beautiful photograph. An inspiring movie. A good friend's soul.

8) I like things to be organized and clean (I am still working on this one!!)

9) I know that you have to love yourself before you can love other people. I don't know how many people really love and take care of themselves, its not easy sometimes. Especially when you need to take care of other people and I am learning that now being a parent.

10) I want the truth. I will seek it out and find it and tell it and live it. This is very difficult. It is easier to lie sometimes even to save someone's feelings from being hurt. Or to cover up something you aren't proud of. We ALL lie sometimes.

This is from my life purpse from the Peaceful Warrior's site. You can go to the site and click on Life Purpose and enter your birthday and read what it says. It is AMAZING!! Now I just have to find a way to have a lucrative career based solely on my creativity!

"Those on the 29/11 life path are here to combine creative energy with higher principles and integrity, finding ways to apply their creativity in service of others, aligned with higher wisdom. Such higher wisdom is revealed by spiritual laws, especially the laws 29/11s are here to live and learn. All 29/11s, along with other double 1s, have tremendous creative potential. But because their primary life purpose represents a kind of mountain to climb, they may not feel as creative as others who aren’t working 1 energy and who have few pressing issues or obstacles in that arena. Some 29/11s are still “stuck” working the 2 or 9 issues that precede the 11, which may block their awareness of the abundant energy available to them. Many 29/11s are extremely creative, but they have trouble handling the energy. Before 29/11s can open the floodgates of their inborn creative potential, they have to find themselves — their center, identity, balance, and boundaries. 29/11s display extraordinary potential; when they face their issues with awareness and commitment, they are among the most creative people on the planet. The energy of 2 entails a form of cooperation with others, and 29/11s are born to support humanity in ways both large and small. Whether businesspeople or healers, construction workers or hairdressers, mail clerks or athletes, they have the potential to bring the spark of creativity to life through their work, their hobbies, or their family life."

Funny Musings

So I don't have entire posts about these subjects but this is just funny observational comedy.

Is your penis caught in something?  I was listening to Prince the other days and he can really hit those high notes and then carry them for long periods. D'angelo can do this too. I used to say that it sounded like they got their penis caught in the elevator door or something.

Caught on camera: I hate red light cameras. I mean I really hate them. Whenever I get caught it isn't because I am speeding, it is because it is raining and the light turns yellow and instead of slamming on my brakes and swerving all over the road I want to continue through the intersection. Then you see the big FLASH of light and you know you have been caught. Then a couple weeks later you get that dreaded ticket in the mail and it has a picture of your rear license plate so there is no question it was your car's ass! Wouldn't it be hilarious if the picture caught your face in shock and horror when the camera flashed or screaming "FFFFFUUUUUUCCCCCCK" in slow motion as it happened. Cause that is how you feel and that is too funny.

Shoulder Spots I was getting ready to go somewhere the other day and I noticed that I had spots all over my shoulder. Then I realized that those were spots of drool mixed with sweet potatoes and I could not just rub that out. Hahaha. Ahh the joys of motherhood!

Wise words This is more of a witty quote of good old Jdracecar. Maybe someone else has said something similar but the more original I try to be the more I realize "its all been done"
I thought I was so clever when I said, mark my words when I say, "Soon they will start charging us for the air we breathe" then I used the magic of Google to see if anyone else had said the same thing. Turns out there are some Eminem lyrics that say something similar to that.

So here are some more of my words of wisdom

"if your motto is 'My way or the highway' most people are going to be on that highway and you will be traveling a lonely road" - Jdracecar (all rights reserved)  :)

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Mega Millions

So I guess the mega millions is up to like 500 million or 500 gazillion or something like that. My husband bought a few tickets. And this DJ said she was going to write on her blog about how she would spend it and I thought that would be a great idea.
Here is the deal money can't buy you happiness. But it can buy you a ticket to paradise and great food and drink and if you do that with loved ones then that is heaven.

I would be smart and invest of course so that my daughter had a great future without having to worry

I would DONATE to people who really need it!! There are so many people in this world who don't even have clean drinking water or food to eat or basic heatlh care - I would GIVE AWAY a ton of it

I would buy a house in Hawaii and one in Italy and just go and travel to every fantantic, incredible and breath-takingly beautiful place I have ever wanted to go!!

I would eat at every freaking 5 star restaurant that I could never afford to "throw my money away on"

I would buy invest in AMERICAN made everything including safe, hand made toys for my baby

I would finally buy all that expensive organic food and be able to grocery shop at Whole Foods like the rest of the rich people

I would buy the new Prius that I want

I would be able to have free time to do what makes me happy - writing, reading, sampling new wines, eating great food, taking beautiful photographs

I would buy a my own vineyard (maybe with my house in Italy!)

I would publish my childrens book and work on my book of funny stories that I never get around to finishing

I would buy all the children's books that I want to buy Chloe and create a Beauty and the Beast type library for her

I would also buy all the books that are on my Amazon wish list cause I would finally have time to read them all

I would learn about everything I want to learn about - take classes learning about every kind of flower and how to grow them
I would have the most lush and gorgeous garden anyone could ever imagnine and maybe even learn how to be a beekeeper

I would be able to have XM radio and that Pandora thing everyone is always talking about

I would be able to get the clothes and shoes that I can't afford

I could finally have time to do all the projects, receipes and buy the art from pinterest that I will never get around to!

it would actually be hard because then I would have to REALLY WORK at creating and being creative and responsible with tons of money, a luxury most of us don't understand

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Most Inspirational Movies

Let me preface this by saying that this is my list, it is personal to me and some of you may not agree with it or want to add or make suggestions, well this isn't an AFI list,  this is MY list. This list is about me, a woman and an artist. So feel free to make your own. If you haven't seen some of these I highly recommend them. This is a very short list and there are many movies that moved me and changed me forever that I am sure I am leaving off a ton of them, but that is okay, since this is just for fun.

1) Shawshank Redemption - of course I have to put this one - cause it is one of the most heart breaking, liberating, break through movies of all time. It says so much about life, oppression, freedom and using your intellect, wit and wisdom to get out of a seemingly impossible situation. It is a masterpiece - everything about it.

2) This Boy's Life - this movie really disturbs me but that is the point - I really love Leo.

3) Crash - a very good look at how destructive we can be as a society and how you can turn things around if you really want to.

4) Vote for Me - this is a documentary about some elementary school kids having an election in their class in China. It is so well done and gives America a little peek inside a country most of us haven't visited.

5) Thelma and Louise - every woman out there should see this movie because it is that important.

6) Steel Magnolias- another must see if you are a woman and you want both a good laugh and a good cry

7) Dancer in the Dark - staring Bjork, most of you probably have not seen this movie. It is so beautiful, be prepared to cry your eyes out!

8) Fifty Dead Men Walking - again, most of you probably haven't seen this - its a great

9) The Constant Gardener - made me realize truths about the world that I don't think i was prepared to learn just like...

10) Hotel Rwanda - shocked and horrified to watch this movie about genocide that the world didn't seem to care about

11) Stand By Me - don't need to tell you why, movie says it all.

12) The Machinist - holy.shit. is all I have to say. This is a jaw dropper.

13) Once - great, little-known movie, great soundtrack too.

14) Pecker - great flick. Shout out to Baltimore. Love the message about being an artist in America.

15) Angels in America - this is a mini-series I think but it is so awesome and I had to include it to hopefully inspire someone to watch it.

16) Definance - I had a problem with the fact that they used a blond, blue-eyed goyim to be the leader of the Jewish people in this film but that is America for you. Do I have to remind you about Scarface or Last of the Mochicans?!

17) The Pianist - wow Adrien Brody. just wow. A story about one man's survival during the Holocaust.

18) Terms Of Endearment - I can't watch this movie because it is too sad, but I think everyone should and the messages about life are immeasureable. It also is a great picture of what life looked like in the 70s.

19) E.T - a classic every American must see.

20) What Dreams May Come - fantastic and beautiful - showing you what heaven and hell might actually be like

21) Finding Neverland - the story of author of Peter Pan - beautiful and heart breaking (I think I have said that many times on this list!) Johnny Depp and Kate Winslet are brillant and should do more movies together!

22) Amelie - another movie every girl should see

23) Their Eyes Are Watching God - this is a great movie starring Halle Berry based on a wonderful book I read in school. The problem was it was made for TV so not that many people probably saw it, or maybe they did, anyway it was great.

24) The Visitor - magnificent illustration of the struggle to be an immigrant in America.

25) Patch - a movie I think every doctor in America should see and LIVE BY! Maybe it would teach them to actally care about their patients, hmm...imagine that!

26) Never Ending Story- I think every child should see this movie, the moral - use your imagination to set yourself free

27) Dead Poets Society - awesome in every way

28) 7 pounds - love this movie so much, makes you think and think long after you see it, just like the Machinist - to think what would I do if that happened to me??

29) Erin Brokovich - I know that this movie may be cliche to some of you but the fact that it is based on a true story gave me so much hope about the power of good people and determination to never give up to help other people who didn't have a voice

30) Sicko - I was so moved by this movie I considered leaving America and its horrible, backwards, greed-driven medical insurance debacle, but I believe things can get better, I really hope they do.

31) Ray - this movie catapulted Jaime Fox into everyone's view and let his incredible talent shine so bright! I forgot I was watching Jaime cause you really start to believe he is Ray!

32) Little Children - a movie that really makes you think hard about being a grown up and our fears surrounding protecting our children from sexual predators

33) American Beauty -  a fantastic movie, exposing our fears, our lies and our misery. I had to study it in my film class at Montgomery College because it is such an important masterpiece.

side note: the following are all Clint Eastwood (director) movies - they are all wonderful, poignant, beautifully executed. AMAZING!!!!

34) Million Dollar Baby

35) HereAfter

36) Gran Torino

34) Changeling 

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Sleep Deprivation: Funny and Dangerous

So I am going to make this a recurring post - funny stories from the sleep deprived. My husband and I do very funny things when we are so tired we can't see straight, literally. They have done studies on drivers who are severly sleep deprived and drunk and the sleep deprived were more dangerous than the drunk ones
Okay so here is the list and you can only imagine the funny insanity that ensued after all of these events.

1) Joe isn't a coffee drinker but I showed him how to make coffee in case I was feeding her and can't do it. So he "made it" one day and instead of pouring the water in the back he just put it on the plate and turned it on. So when this happens and you try to pour the water in - there is a big poof explosion of coffee grinds.

2) My sleepy husband did one of the messiest and most frustrating things you can ever do - dropped the wet coffee grinds all over the floor - which I am sure all of you have done at one point or another, you can't use a broom and a dishpan because it is wet and you have to somehow scoop it all up and get it back in the trash.
Sloppy diaster.

3) I pay bills wrong. I paid the gas bill to the credit card company. And wondered why there was a weird payment on my statement and had to figure out that I paid the wrong bill - you would think electronic bill pay couldn't be any more simple or easy. Well sleep deprived can screw up anything!!. I also paid the mortgage the wrong amount and had to go back and fix that mistake

4) I can't talk or form sentences clearly anymore. I have to take long pauses and try to get out what is in my head - out of my mouth! I can't remember things and have to constantly write everything down (even this funny list)

5) So this is probably the funniest and most ridiculous one. On Sunday I decided to go to Takoma Park to a great little speciality gift store that I love. I ran around the house trying to get everything ready and frantically screamed at my husband, "make sure everything is in the diaper bag!" he said "okay" but he was trying to get himself together to go somewhere else. So I get down there and we are in the store and baby girl is grunting away and I am sure she is making a #2. So I quickly pay and get to the car and realize I have burp cloths, changing pads, an emergency bottle, extra outfits, wipes, toys, but NO DIAPERS and NO TEETHING RINGS. the only 2 things I actually need. So we packed her up and went home and she hadn't pooped yet thank goodness.

The moral of the story is get more sleep and slow down. Approaching chaos and a million thingg to do with a calm, rational, had-sleep head is much better than a crazy, scatter-brain, caffeine soaked, sleep deprived MESS!!

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Baby Pictures - Almost 4 months

Okay, Okay, I know this is what you all want, so here are some recent pictures of my angel girl! She is almost 4 months ( I can't believe it) LOVE HER!!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

I'm Bringing FUNNY Back

So like the song, "I'm Bringing Sexy Back" from our little J T-Lake, I am bringing the FUNNY back. I am sorry I had to have so many angry, sad and serious posts. But Life is everything, sad, bad, sorrowful, painful and also joyful, happy and filled with laughter. I love all things funny and making people laugh so I will try to get back to that. I will also post some recent baby pictures cause I know all of you would rather see those then read my ramblings.

I can't believe that I am only 34 and since I have had a child I feel like now I have the body of a 85 year old. Well people are looking younger and younger these days, maybe I look like a 95 year old!
I had huge boobs before I was pregnant and they just got bigger when I was pregnant. I had to wear a giant maternity bra that I had to order. Then they didn't go back to their original size after I had her, they are somewhere in between. They are also MUCH, MUCH lower! My sister said her boobs looked like ballons that had had the air let out of them after she had breast fed her children. She had little boobies, I had huge ones so I figured I would fair better. Nope, they aren't wrinked up but they sure are headed south, WAY DOWN SOUTH!!
I had enormous stretch marks that covered my belly and after I had her my belly just looks like a jiggly mess. Kind of like those people on Biggest Loser after they lose all the weight and have tons of loose skin hanging - yeah, that is what it looks like with a bunch of cellulite in there too. Sexy right?
And its really not fair because I gained the LEAST amount of weight possible during my pregnancy. I only gained about 30-35 pounds! That is incredible and amazing compared to some other women who gain 60 pounds during their pregnancy. But sadly, I was overweight before I had her and I was what they call a "mature mother" cause I was 33, yeah, super OLD to be having a baby. Its just ridiculous. So now I have to spend a ton of energy trying to get my body back into shape. Some sort of acceptable shape, like actual shape, not fit, I am just trying to look normal damn it!!

As a result of this extreme metamorphosis that my body went through, I had to buy new bras and new pants. But it didn't end there. I also had to buy new shoes. That's right. For some women your feet grow. You go up a 1/2 size or a whole size. Well, I was a 9 or 10 in women's before I had her. Now I am a 10 1/2 or 11 in womens. So imagine my horror as I realized I couldn't wear any of my shoes either!! I had to go out and buy all new shoes as well. It is very expensive to have a child, not only all the things you have to buy for them but all the things you have to buy for your ever-changing body!!

During my pregnancy I also went out and bought myself some nice HUGE "granny panties" so that I would be comfortable. I am still wearing these giant underwear after having her cause they cover more surface area! I also still wear some of my maternity clothes cause they are so roomy and comfy. Especially my Old Navy maternity yoga pants. These were probably my best purchase during those long 9 months.

So I will include the hilarious scene from Zach and Miri Make a Porno, called "Granny Panties" - you probably won't get it unless you see the movie. Disclaimer: I love this movie so much and I hate all and everything to do with porn but this movie is funny and cute. So if you haven't seen it, definitely get it and watch.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Versatile Blog Award

A big thanks to Ruth at for giving me the Versatile Blog Award!
So now I need to include 15 worth blogs - I am going to do 5 and 7 things about myself

These blogs are my favorite and if you aren't already following then you need to be!!

1) Deviled Megs:
2) Laughing My Abs Off:
3) Its An Average Life:
4) Ow, my Angst!:
5) Life By Chocolate:

Here are 7 things about me:

1) I was born with only 3 wisdom teeth so I am evolved, but they were still impacted so I had to have that awful surgery
2) I used to go to Ohio University for a little while
3) I love art
4) When I was small I called Rob Lowe, Rob Lobe because I thought that was his name and since my sister loved Rob Lobe I decided I would marry his younger brother Chad Lobe
5) Not all people can curl their tongue and do the "Spock" hand - I can do both!
6) I really love flowers but don't know enough about them, I wish I could just take a class on flowers and I would if I had time!
7)"Raising Arizona" is my favorite movie

Best Friends

I think I have mentioned this in my blog before, but most of you don't know about it. When I was 14, my best friend Niccole passed away. My daughter is named after her Chloe Niccole.
The other day, Mayim Bilak was on a morning news show talking about her most recent book. She raises her children with attachment parenting but this is extreme "attachment parenting", she breastfeeds past 3 years old, co-sleeps and home schools and allows the children to dictate the curriculum. I think all of this is very interesting and she is a very smart woman and I respect her, but all that parenting stuff can be dealt with in another post.
They showed a picture of her when she was in the movie "Beaches" she played a young Bette Midler. I didn't realize that was her, I knew her from Blossom and love watching her now on Big Bang Theory. Anyway, it reminded me of my best friend and ironically, we had just had a sleep over and watched Beaches right before she passed away. I saw it the first time in the movie theater and cried my freaking eyes out.
It is a heart warming, tear jerker about two best friends. I really miss my friend and that is something that is filled with too much pain, love, grief, sadness, and joy to put into words.

Friday, March 2, 2012

My Soap Box rant

As most of you know I am a big liberal but I am also a feminist. I am a supporter of love, kindness, women's rights, common sense. I want civil rights for ALL human beings. That means ALL!!! No matter what race or sexual orientation. Here are some things that have been on my mind lately:

1) Women should be raised to love themselves unconditionally, no matter what size or shape
2) I love Dove's campaign for real beauty that celebrates the way "real" women look
3) I love Ellen Degeneres, I love what she stands for I love her comedy, I love how much she loves others, I love that she helps others so much.
4) I recently found out that the Superman comic came out with an edition that supported civil rights and taught kids it was wrong to hate. I love this concept. Reaching kids and showing that their superhero that they emulate, believes in WHAT IS RIGHT!!!
5) I believe in using your mind and valuing intelligence is something that is being lost in our society. It isn't cool to be "dumb" or "mean" and this is something that I will teach my daughter over and over again. It is COOL to be smart and to love books and ultimately knowledge is power!
6) I saw a bumper sticker that says "I am already against the next war" - I love this so much. And a friend of mine posted a sign on his page that said, "They lied to us about Iraq and they are lying to us about Iran" - yes, yes they are!
7) this is an election year and the war between "right wing" and "left wing" people is boiling over. You know I am a big liberal. I support Obama. I always have and always will!
8) I have been watching some very disturbing "conspiracy" theory videos about Chemtrails and 9/11. Lets just say the truth is MUCH STRANGER and SHOCKING than fiction and I will always seek out the truth about anything.
9) in one of these videos Prince, (whom I love) was saying that there were like 8 presidents before George Washington. Just more proof that we were fed a bunch of crazy lies when we were kids about this country's history.
10) This recent crap about not letting women testify in the hearings about women's access to contraception is completlety unacceptable and makes me so furious I can't even see straight! We have to stand up for our rights as women. We make the world go round. We are the smarter sex. No women, no more humans! REMEMBER?! Yet, we live in a man's world and a group of old, white men are supposedly in charge of deciding what we can and can't do with our bodies? HELL NO! All of my doctors are women and I go to them because I know they understand a woman's body more than a man and they LISTEN and they care more than a man. Sorry men, I love you but you have a bad track record with me. Women are abused, taken for granted, beaten, raped, disrespected, in some areas of the world they are set on fire because their husbands "suspect" they are unfaithful and that is completely accepted there. We are brain washed to believe we need to be skinny and "pretty" to be loved. I am going to be the change I want to see in the world (Ghandi quote). I am here to say, NO! We are wonderful, loving, funny, filled with love. We take care of men, raise the children and the next generation. So be good to women everywhere! ALL THE TIME!!!!

That is enough of my soap box rant for now. I could go on and on all day. And I will, just later! HAHA